My weekend= terrible

So I don't remember wht this is supposed to be about for sure. Soo yea, I will start with my weekend I had a terrible weekend because my grandpa died and me and him were really close,when I was homescholed I would go over there just to hang out with him and so I am trying not too cry, so instead of being sad I get really really mad so if I start yelling at anyone I am sorry for that I will probally lose it one of these days, sooner than later. My grandpa liked pretty much everything, he liked to do things with his hands like carving wood or makeing model planes with toothpicks. He was a big eater, he loved to make his famous sauwerkrawt which is really really good. A couple months before he died, we (me and my grandpa) were talking about death and that it would hopefully be a while. Well it wasn't to long before he died and Now I am dedicating myself to him And I am going into the marines to be spec. Ops and then I am goin to be a S.W.A.T (law enforcment) officer. I am hopeing to get some kinda tattoo to remember him by. I just want to be alright with him going to a better place now and forever. He accepted God as his lord and savior 6 days before he died, which helps with the pain of the loss of him. I want to learn to be just like him and be physically fit and active past my 70's. Keep me alive as long as possible so I can see my great great grandson or/and grandneice. The funeral for my grandpa was monday that's why I wasn't at some of my classes and why I missed lunch, the funeral went good and we had a reception afterward that went great, we had a lo of time to meet people and talk to relatives from far away.